Monday, August 30, 2010

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

combine love







Wow... Love love love these songs..
combine it and it is so lovely.....
Muacks...

Marriage

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.

So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.

By Stephanie Halmilton

Friday, August 20, 2010

WHAT??

School head under probe over racist remarks

By MOHD FARHAAN SHAH
newsdesk@thestar.com.my


KULAIJAYA: Police are investigating a school principal who allegedly used racist remarks against non-Malay students during a Merdeka celebration at the school here recently.
Kulaijaya deputy OCPD Asst Supt Mohd Kamil said police had received 12 reports against the principal since Saturday and that the case was being investigated under Section 504 of the Penal Code.
Over 50 parents and students had lodged the reports against the principal, who allegedly described the non-Malays as “penumpang” (passengers) in the country during her speech at the start of the celebration on Aug 12.
“I was shocked that my principal had used such a word against non-Malay students in our school.
“This is not the first time that she had made racist comments against Chinese and Indian students in our school,” said 17-year-old student Brevia Pan.
She added that the principal, who joined the school early this year, would only target Chinese and Indian students.
“During the Merdeka celebration, she had told non-Malay students to go study in a Chinese school or go back to China,” she told reporters in a press conference organised by Senai assemblyman Ong Kow Meng.
Another student, Ashvini Thi-na­karan, 17, said many Malay students were influenced by the principal’s remarks and made similar comments and called them names.
“Before she came to my school, all the students got along well,” she said. Her father R. Thinakaran, 47, said this was a serious matter and that principals should not behave like this.
“This principal has caused racial disharmony at the school,” he said, adding that if no action was taken, he would take his daughter out of the school.
Ong called for stern action against the principal, adding that such school heads and educators would affect the minds of students.

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OMG.. what is all this educated people doing???
Ain't they suppose to teach the students to be 1 Malaysia???
Why are they breaking us???

Thursday, August 19, 2010

What does puasa means?

I'm an Indian mixed Chinese girl, having many Malay friends..
Having Malay relatives...

I remember when i was back in the schooling days, when it was Bulan Puasa...
Me and my non-Muslim friends were so considerate that we try to not eat and drink in front of our Muslim friends...
We go to the back of the class to drink if we are too thirsty so that we don't instigate their thirst..
And i remember my friends used to say.. "eleh, minum je lah.. tak payah nak sorok2.. IMAN AKU KUAT..."
I really respect this friends of mine...
As much as we respect them, they are also considerate about us being the non-Muslims..we don't have that strong will power to fast like them.. 

I've tried fasting too.. yeah.. only 1 day....in a year
In the Indian calender there is this day where girls fast for their husband / if single fast for a good husband.. and it is tomorrow... TOMORROW... but since this year, I'm not doing the prayers... I decided not to fast...




*Source*
Fasting is intended to teach Muslims about patience, humility, and spirituality...
During Ramadan, Muslims ask forgiveness for past sins, pray for guidance and help in refraining from everyday evils, and try to purify themselves through self-restraint and good deeds.. (But if these people's keep making fuss about we non- Muslims eating and drinking AND THEY LOOK, what can we do about it?? )
The fast is intended to be an exacting act of deep personal worship in which Muslims seek a raised awareness of closeness to God.
The act of fasting is said to redirect the heart away from worldly activities, its purpose being to cleanse the inner soul and free it from harm. It also teaches Muslims to practice self-discipline, self-control, sacrifice, and empathy for those who are less fortunate; thus encouraging actions of generosity and charity
Ramadan
This is a month when a Muslim should try to:
bulletSee not what displeases Allah
bulletSpeak no evil
bulletHear no evil
bulletDo no evil
bulletLook to Allah with fear and hope
"O you who believe! Fasting is prescribed for you as it was prescribed for those before you, that you may become God-fearing." (The Quran, 2:183)
The Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) said: Whoever fasts during Ramadan with faith and seeking his reward from Allah will have his past sins forgiven. Whoever prays during the nights in Ramadan with faith and seeking his reward from Allah will have his past sins forgiven. And he who passes Lailat al-Qadr in prayer with faith and seeking his reward from Allah will have his past sins forgiven (Bukhari, Muslim). 


So Basically puasa is for them to get closer to god..
But why in Malaysia they are forced??
Is it that if they don't puasa, god will not sayang them is it??
Allah will not want them issit??

Why they make this puasa thingy a big issue that we the non-Muslims are supposed to be sent back to where ever we came from???
We are also Malaysian..
So why discriminate us???
Why be so cruel to us to ask us to not eat and drink just because you puasa???
Ain't this puasa thingy suppose to built up your will power??

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My say.. - Muslim friends.. i'm not saying this puasa thingy is disturbing me..
But i just wanna know, what does puasa really mean to you??
To me it's suppose to take you closer to Allah, just like how we eat vegetarian food to take us closer to our god..
So how come some school's(recently) headmaster is asking us to go back to our own country???

Sunday, August 15, 2010

ROBOT



Oh my my... among all songs i only like this the most.. and kilimanjaro as the 2nd.. the rest is out...
Not to my liking at all...
I love this lyrics too...
Yum Yum....
Sexy lady....

Check out the telugu version... it's nice too...



I'M YOURS...
And DON'T GET ANY IDEAS....!!!!
Hahah.... =)

Movie is out on the 24th of September... 4 days after... yeah...!!!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Monday, August 9, 2010

Suffer now or future?

This post is not meant to be rude to anyone...
And if there is any coincident in life.. please ignore it...

I met up with friends yesterday and 1 of them was telling us so much about her relationship and how another girl came into his life and made her bf feel so bad....
She told us... "hey if you know any of your bf's friend who acts like a bitch.. ask him to run as fast and as far as he can...".. this was her exact words...
Please tell your brother and also any of your male friends who does not want to regret in future....
Girls can screw their life...

I am a girl and I know what a girl is capable of....
What we want is what we get...
If we can't get it...
We will either spoil their(guys) name...
Or do anything to make him feel bad and miserable....

Trust me... GUYS will regret if a girl gets into his life and leave with full of sadness...

Hai... and another friend added... if the guy (bf/bro/friends) don't wanna listen.. BE A BAD GIRL and tell the guy to stop communicating with the girl....

I agree.. it's either we be bad and the guy dun suffer in future..
Or the guy will have to go through the pain after.... and that is when we will say "I TOLD YOU SO"...
Yeah.. my normal line....
But lucky till today I've never used it on my bf (when it comes to girls problem) except when he comes and tell me I'M COUGHING... because he love drinks with ice...

I definitely know my bf is not perfect....but at least he is perfect to me...
He may lie... He may cheat.. He may do anything he wants.. But i know at the end of the day he loves me.. and he is mine...

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How do you like the idea of meeting up with future father in law to talk about your bf/ relationship???
Haha.... AWKWARD..!!!!!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Why we never listen..

We always ask why we never listen to people we love..
Like- if he is your dad, you will always want to go against him and not listen to him..
If she is your mum, and she tell you something, you will always say NO and not listen..
If they are your siblings and they tell you don't do that mistake.. you say, "you are either too old, or too young to understand"...
If she is your girlfriend/wife, and she tell's you please listen, you will not..
If he is your boyfriend/husband, he tell's you it is dangerous, but you will still not listen..
WHY huh???

We tend to take all this people for granted because  you know that they love you so much that they will never leave you when you need them....
They will still hold your hand...
They will tell you I TOLD YOU SO...
They will tell you VERY GOOD..
They will say anything and everything but they will still be by your side...
No matter what mistake it is... they are the FIRST people in line that will be there for you...
You can say whatever you want...
You can say how much your dad says NO to you...
You can say how much your mum nags you...
You can say how much your siblings fight with you...
You can say how irritating your gf/bf is when they stop you from doing things that you want..
You can say how much you hate it that your wife/husband says I TOLD YOU SO...
But never say how much THEY DON'T LOVE YOU....
Because they love you more than anyone does...

A friend may come and go in your life....
If they stay... tell them how much it means to you to have them as a friend...
A girlfriend / boyfriend will also come and go..
But if they decide to stay CHERISH them....
Husband/ wife may be together.. may be divorced...
But of they decide to be with you forever...
LOVE them till you last breath...




Dad, if you are reading this... I just wanna say that I LOVE YOU.. you have been a great dad .. Remember the e-mail you sent me??? it is just so true.. but trust me... till today.. you may be a little TOO STRICT with this daughter of yours.. and i know it is for my own good...

Mum, thank you for being the 1st lady in my life... You are the greatest.. and I WILL NEVER BRING TROUBLE HOME.... because I LOVE YOU too much to hurt you..

Sisters and brother..... I LOVE YOU... although i fight and argue too much.. but you people are just so important to me....

Boyfriend... I've got so much to say.... but 1stly i'll say I LOVE YOU... 5 years is not short.. and you have been so good to me... i know i am a useless gf AT TIMES.. but trust me...I LOVE YOU.... Love you so much... and i'll tell you the rest when i see you...

I know i am stubborn and i never listen...But I LOVE all of you....

Tuesday, August 3, 2010