I love YOU

You know one thing sweetheart??
I love you so much....
You are so busy studying to make sure we have a good life in future...
I understand it..
But it makes me miss you so much...
I can't call you..
I don't wanna disturb you...

The part of the song where it say" i'm fine without you" is so wrong..
and we are meant to be together.....
Because all i want is you...
I know there have been things in between us that makes us fight..
But seriously... i know i love you..
And i will always do..

Yeah, i'm not gonna say that FOREVER word..
Not that i don't believe in forever about us..
But we never know what will happen in future...
But trust me...
All i want now is YOU....

I never know what is gonna happen tomorrow..
But today, NOW.. i just wanna tell you i love you....
MD, I LOVE YOU....

I love you so much...
and i guess, what's in my mind now is YOU...
all about you...

I LOVE YOU....
Thank you so much for loving me....=)

I wish i never got to know you in my life...
I wish everything was how i wanted instead of having interruption in between...
I wish....
It's all about i wish....
and i know nothing about what i wish is going to happen....

I know you are good at complaining...
It's okay....
You love complaining...
You just love seeing me getting into a fight...
So that you can win...

If you wanna win so badly..
TAKE IT...
take the trophy and go..
I don't want that lousy trophy...

I've been giving in to you so many times...
Have you to come and back stab me again and again....
go and live your own life...
I don't care if you are sad, happy, miserable or WHATEVER...
Just get out of my life....

Just when i thought that i can forget you,
You come and make some appearance....
and then you choose not to leave...
Why have you to make me feel so miserable???
I'm letting you win...
I'm letting you have your trophy...
just let go of me in you small little game...
I don't wanna play with you....

Sometimes

In life....
Not everything must be fast....
Or should i say, we can always go slow..
No matter it is exam..
Or family...
Relationship..
Friends....
ANYTHING...

drive car, can always drive slow..
Not necessary to drive fast.. Because you will either end up in BEING SAFE or ACCIDENT..
If you luck is good, then you will be safe..
If it is bad, see you in the hospital....

Relationship... we never know what kinda person are we really dealing with...
It either can be a good person.. or a bad person...
A faker... a pretender..
or maybe a genuine person who will take care of you for the rest of your life....

Friends... even to be friends.. we must make sure we do not rush..
Yeah some people they just approach you and say HI..
But that does not mean that you must immediately respond to it and be friends...
I've know many whom i just say HI and move away..
Some comes closer and some goes further...
It depends... we cannot rush friendships...

Family dying soon.... I know that the moment we hear that any of our family is in the hospital..
we will definitely rush.. i did that once...
Yeah.. we cannot change anything..
we are not doctor...
And i'm not gonna say anything here..

But seriously in life, if we can see things as how it is..
take our slow time to analyze what is it that we want in life...
Make proper decision..
Rushing is not gonna benefit you when you are gonna say,
"if only i took time and think.."...
"if only i take things slow.."...
IF ONLY.....
no point saying IF ONLY when the bad already took place...
All you gotta do is just say... "it's okay.. i'll make sure i do not do it again.."
"I'll take time to think..."
"i'll slow down"....

Yeah,time does not wait for us.. That's why god gave us 24 hours and not 12 hours...
Slowdown.... you will not regret... =)

Let's just fall in love again..

A lie..

A lie is forever a lie..
After telling the truth also, it is still a lie..
The worst part of the lie is , 1 lie after another....
Keep telling lie and you will never get to tell the truth forever...

The moment you start telling a lie...
You will definitely not tell the truth....
And even if you wanna tell the truth after that,
No one is gonna believe you...

No way

There is no way we will ever forget what we have done...
Even until you die...
You will not forget....
Except for you've got amnesia..
Or maybe you are senile (correct spelling right??)
Or maybe you've got this memory weakness that you forget things fast..
OR WHATEVER.....

We always say that time will heal things..
but how true is this....
I find it a little hard..
trust me..
How can you forget when people keep reminding you..
Right???
I've got this issue...
I love to remind..
and i like to be reminded..
until the person is satisfied with all the question and answer.

Call me crazy....
I like to talk.. and talk and talk until i am satisfied with that certain issue..
Which interest me...

And I am BAD..
I am not saying NO...
I am BAD....

To be happy, we should always learn to not blame anything....
Or regret any of our doings...

We came to this world to enjoy..
But if in between, we suffer a little, do not blame god... because god wants us to be strong in the future...
if you are broke now, god is actually teaching you on how to handle money problem in future...
If there is a problem with friends, god is teaching you on how to know which friend is worth keeping or not..
If there is a problem with your parents, god is teaching you on how to treat your children later on so that you do not need to go through what your parents or you are going through now..
If there is a relationship problem, god is teaching you to make proper decision in future.. if it is worth it or not....
If there is a problem in any situation.. Look at the brighter side of it..
You will definitely laugh at yourself thinkign how silly are you to actually fell sad for all this little little things thinking it is big....

I was talking to this elderly person, telling him how i felt about things..
and all he did was pat my shoulder and said, " this is a small matter, dont worry about it.."..
He was right.. it was really a small matter...
It is just how we look at things..
So no matter what problem it is..
Don't blame anyone...
Because there is definitely a solution to all problems...
Probably you did not find the correct person to talk to..

God, thank you so much.. you always know who to make me talk to...
and how to make me feel better....
I love you... muacks...

Do you.....

I wonder do you really know what is LOVE all about??
love is a feeling that is unexpressable..
it's something everyone would talk about sacrificing..
what can you, a human on earth really sacrifice for the one you love??
Trust me, i don't wanna sacrifice anything...
the only thing i can do for my other half is to make him happy... I can give and take...
but don't ask me to lose other things just for love...
it sound so over protactive and demanding...
love is meant to give and take...
i'm not a thing that you keep when you are happy, and thrown away when you are sad or you don't need me...

When two people be together, when love strikes, we feel happy....
there is no relationship that never fight... B ut remember 1 thing... No matter how big the fight can be, your other half, is still holding onto your hand...

Never let go until you are very sure of it... Because you might not get another chance...
There is a saying that,YOU WILL NOT APREICIATE THAT PERSON UNTIL THEY ARE GONE...
i think i don't need to wait until that time comes... Because i know how important you are in my life...
5 years... And i believe, if LOVE, is what we feel for each other... There will be many more years for us...

You asked me that when this guy came and sweet talk with me, did i even feel or felt anything for him...
my answer was so easy... NO...
You asked me WHY
i gave you another easy answer... BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT I WANT IN LIFE AND IT IS YOU...
Have you forgotten??????
i am GREATGODS GIRL....
SO TRUST ME... When i say I LOVE YOU...

Sometimes

Sometimes mistake can turn out to be NOT a mistake...
So what i did was not a mistake...
It was meant to happen...
It was probably a mistake that is suppose to happen to make things right....
But I'm thinking how right is this now??

I can sense the rightness a little from what i did...
But i can sense probably the rightness is just not enough from the other side...
If you can just prove to me what i did was right, i will definitely be very happy..

Love is to put up with your bad qualities... and that's because you complete me...
Although i know we have hurt each other, but i know this is true love..
If you ever ask me.. "you already know the ending, would you still wanna be with me??"... My answer will be YES
Trust me, You are always on my mind....
I can never ignore you even when i'm angry....




Call me selfish... (but i don't sell fish in the market OKAY)....
But all i want is you..
All to my own..

People always choose to lie....
They lie once, they can lie twice, and they can also lie for 3 times...
Trust me.. I'm always being dumb because i choose to ignore all their lies and just trust them....
I think choosing the word "just to trust them" is a little too much..
Probably, i just took their lies at the surface and never think more that what they tell me...

This life, i'm suppose to choose the road i wanna take, but i choose to let others to lead me...
Now i think it is time for me to let go of every damn thing and just do what I'm suppose to do...
I don't wanna let little2 things to hurt me anymore..
especially when it is a thrid party hurting me..
That seriously hurt when i know i'm being a dumb fuck to even believe that you were being nice...
FUCK YOU....
You are just a pain...
I don't wanna let you to give me any pain anymore..
Enough...
I think i should just push you aside for now....

Hurts

It hurts that you do not understand what I'm trying to say....
I'm sad that you just can't read my mind...
Why does it happen this way???
You ask me one Q some days ago...
My answer was No,
But seriously i guess it was because i felt unsecured....
Trust me, if you stand in my shoes you will understand what I'm trying to say..
Whenever you ask me a q, i definetly ask you back what do you think about it..
Because what you feel, is what i would feel too..
How can a humans feeling RUN far away from what others will feel???

Have you ever thought about how will i feel when you make a decision???
Have you ever????
If you have, guess this wouldn't happen..
I can see where is this going....
And trust me, I'm not happy at all....

I told you my judgement is never wrong..
I was never wrong
And i know that i'll never be wrong...
Been telling myself this forever..
Been telling you this forever too...
But you choose to not listen....
Do i have a choice???
Can i make any decision??
All i wanna do is make you happy..
BUT I'VE FAILED....

Do you really need the 10% from others???
Trust me...
Whenever you make a decision, ask yourself, if you are on the other persons shoe, WHAT WILL YOU DO???
Trust me.. i feel like using the WORD now..
the ONE word...... One word that i hate most.....

It makes me feel that I"M BAD...
yeah.. What to do.....
I was never good.....

I was just thinking

Since there are too many people reading the other blog of mine, i might as well start writing here because some things are better kept away right???
There's so many things happening now....

Yesterday after 5 years, my bf added the relationship status thingy on Facebook...
Haha.. and all the response that is got was like.. Huh?? NOW ONLY??
haha.. after 5 years... 2months and 23 days.. he announced to the whole facebook humans...
yea.. call me lame to be happy okay..

Then some issues did make me feel 1 kind...
im standing in the middle not knowing what to do...
tell me, is it my fault to get angry if you push me away all of a sudden??
Don't i have the rights to get angry?? at least a little??

Trust me okay.. i'm not taking sides...
I don't wanna take sides..
I really don't want???

I've told myself long time ago, if 2 person wanna fight, don't get me involved..
I'm still friends of both parties...
DON'T blame me for being friends with both party...
And if you ever tell me any secret..
Im definitely not telling the other perty..
Because the war is between u ppl..
NOT ME....
Don't blame me.....

I don't wanna get involved....
Keep me away...